day 2

lol. is this going to be harder than i imagined? there's a hundred things bothering me right now, and finding *one* to write about is difficult through all that noise. maybe that's what i should write about then? the 100 things?

(well, let's see... the list probably won't get up to 100, maybe not even 10. we'll see.)

1. the months long jerking around i've had at harbor-ucla. for a good long time, i was one of the cowed sheep who didn't think i had any room to bitch. i mean, i've gone to the doc maybe 10 times since february, and i've had a couple of spendy procedures so far (biopsy and ct scan), and my one bill is for $840. it showed up a few weeks after the ct. it's not itemized or anything, though. anyway, there have been 4 occasions on which i was scheduled to have surgery. 2 were rescheduled. one time i went, and was there for 6 hours, no food or water since midnight, etc, before they told me they'd have done surgery but that i'd need to spend the night, and they had no bed. the 4th time, same thing, AND they wanted to admit me the day before for my labs. yeah, make me spend another night there (getting no sleep) to do something i can do w/o being admitted? but alas, their wanting it was moot... again, no bed. 

the thing that really fries my ass? it's rescheduled. for 29 september. FML. i just want the shit out of me, and i'm looking at 2 surgeries to make that so.


2. tired tired tired of being broke. i don't think this requires any explanation.

3. so very grateful for the presence of a few people in my life. and some of them i've never even met. or i've met. once. and both of us were the same but also very different, or so young that she still scared me. and sometimes the distance between all of us (after it's a long haul to bumblefuck, pa, etc) really pisses me off.

4. i need some new videogames. joel's gonna lend us "infamous2" in exchange for a carne asada dinner next weekend, and in the meantime i'm playing "ac:2" for probably the 20th time. the firmware update last tuesday did make a pretty significant difference in how the game looks, and that's cool... but isn't it about time for the new "ac" game already?!?

k, maybe more bitching later. i'm gonna go play.